i make intentions

i articulate them
speak them out loud
say them to my collaborator
my facebook friends
i speak with my soon to be ex
he is gathering the paperwork
we are moving toward dissolution
i look out the window
wanting to dissolve
there is blue sky
sun setting
i am going
somewhere
toward black eyed peas
and greens
a new year's tradition
in the south
for luck and money
i will go
arrive in white
begin, again
at my beginnings
at the table
of another devil
i am
lost
for all my
searching
for gods
i denounce, renounce,
can no longer pronounce
any of their names
but one...
love still haunts
in all the lonely places

i realize
i have no
fucking idea
what it is...